Close-Open

Just when you close one door, another one opens.

Two days ago, I was planning to clean my list of friends in fb.  I know that not all  of them are my real friends and I know that deleting them is a good way because it was my fault why I accepted their friendship request in the first place.  I think that some of them just wanted to gossip around and look at the pictures but none of them really cared at all.

Anyway the main point was not about that one.  I had 557 friends enlisted in my profile and before I log off I was only able to erase one person out of that 577 friends...and it was --- Jawad.  I don't know why but I think that I should not be in contact with him anymore.  We still exchange messages and sometimes I ask the condition of his family but I just realized that I don't have to hold on to his memories...or rather to our memories.  I don't want him to be my friend anymore.  I can feel that he has someone new in his life right now and I should just leave his life completely.  As the song goes...

So I'm begging you heart don't change my mind
Oh heart it's hard for you, I know

Let me let him go....


When I deleted him already, I was so relieved that I could finally start my life fresh and new....then Mbarek came along out of nowhere and sent a messaging saying he missed me. After 3 months??? Who is he? He is another story. God please spare me for once. 



My guy friend called to tell me that he will give my number to a guy that is also single and I should meet this guy... It's like they didn't ask me if I want or what...they just have decided that I should go out with him....hmmmm....wonders of people. =)
Why are they so bothered with my life when I am not even bothered with my own life?  I don't care if I am 27 years old  already..I just care that I need to rest first.  Obviously sometimes I missed the feeling of being loved but as of the moment all the sweetness in my system already faded.  Hahahaha.  The juice of sweetness is currently hibernating.  I don't know when it will go out from my system again.