Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Close-Open


Just when you close one door, another one opens.

Two days ago, I was planning to clean my list of friends in fb.  I know that not all  of them are my real friends and I know that deleting them is a good way because it was my fault why I accepted their friendship request in the first place.  I think that some of them just wanted to gossip around and look at the pictures but none of them really cared at all.

Anyway the main point was not about that one.  I had 557 friends enlisted in my profile and before I log off I was only able to erase one person out of that 577 friends...and it was --- Jawad.  I don't know why but I think that I should not be in contact with him anymore.  We still exchange messages and sometimes I ask the condition of his family but I just realized that I don't have to hold on to his memories...or rather to our memories.  I don't want him to be my friend anymore.  I can feel that he has someone new in his life right now and I should just leave his life completely.  As the song goes...

So I'm begging you heart don't change my mind
Oh heart it's hard for you, I know

Let me let him go....


When I deleted him already, I was so relieved that I could finally start my life fresh and new....then Mbarek came along out of nowhere and sent a messaging saying he missed me. After 3 months??? Who is he? He is another story. God please spare me for once. 



My guy friend called to tell me that he will give my number to a guy that is also single and I should meet this guy... It's like they didn't ask me if I want or what...they just have decided that I should go out with him....hmmmm....wonders of people. =)
Why are they so bothered with my life when I am not even bothered with my own life?  I don't care if I am 27 years old  already..I just care that I need to rest first.  Obviously sometimes I missed the feeling of being loved but as of the moment all the sweetness in my system already faded.  Hahahaha.  The juice of sweetness is currently hibernating.  I don't know when it will go out from my system again. 



Sunday, April 17, 2011

Bataan Excursion

The whole castaways....Faculty and Staff of Green Fields International School

Our Bataan Excursion....which was supposedly for three days but it was cut short. Anyways, we had lots of fun during the trip.  =)  with ESL teachers - Bianca, Darryll, Allan and Bert....some of the ESL teachers were on vacation so they missed a part of their life (just kidding)...

It was my first time in this place. I had a super, amazing, wonderful, and satisfying experience.  I just wish there was enough time to relax, enjoy the games, explore the place and splurge on food................=)



This was the picture of the resort....taken by my co-teacher.  It was not a special camera like SLR but they were able to capture a fantastic shot.



Well it's not actually a white, fine sand type like Boracay. The sand on the beach was fine and the water was clear.  What I like most about the beach was that underneath it there were no water species/creatures that would suddenly burst out of the water.  There were some small jellyfish but it was not harmful, actually it stings but the pain was tolerable. hahaha.  



At around 2pm or maybe 3pm, we went for a little boat ride to a different island.  Actually the scenery was the same like any boat rides I've been thru, the places we went were not that amazing but what I noticed was the calmness of the place and the island.  It was still preserved and not so discovered at all.  Here's a pic of where we went to...



These are some of my shots when we were on the boat.....


In this picture, my camera was in the normal setting and I just focused the shot near the sun's light.  I was trying to capture both the sun's shadow and the sun itself.




 In this picture, I put the settings in a calm mode and because of that it reflected the bluish color of the sky and the sea. 





It was around 5pm and we just finished our boat ride.  I was currently exploring the settings of my camera.  I don't have SLR guys but as my friend/mentor Rikki (he was a semi-professional photographer-hahahaha) told me that everything is all about the LIGHTS...and of course the LENS...and because of that I've taken his advice of checking the light.  Then I try to adjust the settings to make the trees look brighter and greener and VOILA- I have this pic! nice!  

After the island escapade, as I've mentioned our vacation was cut short but before going back to the real world we passed by some historical sights in Bataan.  First, we went to the Dambana ng Kagitingan dedicated to the martyrs of the war in this place.
 Left (author) Right (Bianca)


In the shot below, I was not the one who took this (again) it was my co-teacher and it was really an amazing shot.




Down below was taken by yours truly.  I was not able to climb the steps all the way to the cross but by the looks of it...uhhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmm.....The day that time was extremely hot! I think I really got burned during this time and not when I was on the beach hehehehe.  That is why the place is not an easy task but it's all worth it.  It is really a sacrifice to reach God....the view upstairs was so fantastic.  Plus, you can actually go inside the cross using an elevator.  I'm not good with the length or meters in order to describe how high was it but I should say that it feels like you're in heaven when you reach the top.   You just have to pay an entrance fee of 10 pesos and then you will be able to see the whole range of Bataan-at least for me.  



 A view from the top of the cross.



In this part of the trip, we were able to go to the museum, but taking pictures were strictly prohibited.  In the museum were pictures during the World War in the Philippines.  The pictures taken were not as ordinary as what we always see in the museum because some pictures were explicit like Japanese soldiers abusing women, children whose bodies lay dead on the street and many more. 



Before we go home, I saw that the flooring of the whole place was unusual.  It was in a form of a cross, so I asked my friends to sit down and pretend like they're saying a prayer or doing a ritual.  Actually my friends were kind of participative and cooperative when I take their pictures.  I had many pictures of them than myself and that was the reason why they didn't bring their cameras with them because they know that they will be the official photographer of the trip.  For me, it was fine because my goal was to take pictures and souvenirs of the other unexplored places in Philippines.  This was my second trip since I came here last September 2010.  So, I'm enjoying every part of  my tour/ exploration.  See you on the road pare ko.  =) 


Sunday, April 10, 2011

Famous PUNCHLINES....


     I'M JUST SO FASCINATED WITH QUOTES AND PUNCHLINES..THESE ARE TAKEN FROM MY FAVORITE MOVIES...Movies that I watch every now and then whenever I feel weary. It helps...with some chips, ice cream and tissues or a power pillow to hug... 







So here's my list of MUST-SEE-MOVIES-BEFORE-YOU-DIE (English category and I have a Korean category soon to be published).  I love movies a lot especially those with sad and bitter endings.   For me, it's kinda realistic and lingering, it's a sign that's telling me that life is not a fairy tale.  It is a must that I should watch one movie a day before I sleep, otherwise my day would not be complete.  I put on my personal favorites and added their punchlines that I'm sure after watching the movie, you'll never forget that line ever again!  ^_^ ----this means that you need to watch it now!!!!

PRIDE AND PREJUDICE

                           I never knew that Pride and Prejudice was a good movie until I watched it last night.  I have seen the book but I never paid attention to it probably because the cover of the book was not attractive (for me).  I haven't read the synopsis even.  Last week, in our conversation class, we asked the students what was their favorite movie and why it was their favorite movie.  Matthew, our Korean student, answered that his favorite of all time was Pride and Prejudice.  He had watched the movie for almost 20 times and have read the book over and over again.  From that moment, I told myself I have to watch this movie, anyway it's one of the classic "must-seen" movies like Gone with the Wind, Casablanca, and what not.  So, I told my brother to download this movie....and then there was it--that moment--I immediately fell in love with Mr. Darcy and I kept on rewinding the last part where he just appeared in the vast meadows before dawn .....sometimes I would just play it while I'm cooking or cleaning my room just to hear Mr. Darcy's voice....Kiera Knightley is not my favorite actress but after watching this, I might say that I love her and understood why Mr. Darcy love her as well.....^_^



Mr. Darcy: You must know... surely, you must know it was all for you. You are too generous to trifle with me. I believe you spoke with my aunt last night, and it has taught me to hope as I'd scarcely allowed myself before. If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on.

 Mr. Darcy: Miss Elizabeth. I have struggled in vain and I can bear it no longer. These past months have been a torment. I came to Rosings with the single object of seeing you... I had to see you. I have fought against my better judgment, my family's expectations, the inferiority of your birth by rank and circumstance. All these things I am willing to put aside and ask you to end my agony.
Elizabeth Bennet: I don't understand.
r. Darcy: I love you. Most ardently. Please do me the honor of accepting my hand.
Elizabeth Bennet: Sir, I appreciate the struggle you have been through, and I am very sorry to have caused you pain. Believe me, it was unconsciously done.
Mr. Darcy: Is this your reply?
Elizabeth Bennet: Yes, sir.
Mr. Darcy: Are you... are you laughing at me?
Mr. Darcy: Are you *rejecting* me?
Elizabeth Bennet: I'm sure that the feelings which, as you've told me have hindered your regard, will help you in overcoming it.
Mr. Darcy: Might I ask why, with so little endeavor at civility, I am thus repulsed?
Elizabeth Bennet: And I might as well enquire why, with so evident a design of insulting me, you chose to tell me that you liked me against your better judgment.


 BRIDGET JONES' DIARY (2001)

                       This is one of my best of the best of the best movies I've seen so far and I'd like to watch over and over again.  I beginning to think if there would be someone as silly like her and someone like Mr. Darcy (again as Collin Firth also portrayed Mr. Darcy in Pride and Prejudice the series).  This is like a fairy tale story like one day nobody likes you then another day comes and two guys are fighting over you (wish I am Bridget).  Sometimes when I watch her silly moves I feel embarrassed for her---- (I feel that I am in her place and I've done something silly that I can't undo anymore and so just have to face the consequences...hahahhaha).  A love story that you would like to happen to you especially when you're the same age with 30 and doesn't have a true relationship who ends up with (lines of Bridget: Equally important: will find nice sensible boyfriend and stop forming romantic attachments to any of the following: alcoholics, workaholics, sexaholics, commitment-phobics, peeping toms, megalomaniacs, emotional fuckwits, or perverts. Will especially stop fantasizing about a particular person who embodies all these things.) Light, funny, romantic and will give you a doze of addiction to Mr. Darcy. ^_^ 





Mark Darcy: I don't think you're an idiot at all. I mean, there are elements of the ridiculous about you. Your mother's pretty interesting. And you really are an appallingly bad public speaker. And, um, you tend to let whatever's in your head come out of your mouth without much consideration of the consequences... But the thing is, um, what I'm trying to say, very inarticulately, is that, um, in fact, perhaps despite appearances, I like you, very much. Just as you are.


 
WHEN HARRY MET SALLY (1989)














I don't really want to watch it because of Billy Crystal, I don't like him to be the leading man of Meg Ryan (I love Meg Ryan a lot and all of her movies). For me a typical leading man should be good-looking but then I was wrong because as the story goes, you'll eventually love him and his character. The story was basically purely talking but then it has pure superb and power lines that will take your breath away especially the last part of the movie. 

Harry: I love you.
Sally: How do you expect me to respond to this?
Harry: How about you love me, too?
Sally: How about, I'm leaving.
Harry: Doesn't what I said mean anything to you?
Sally: I'm sorry, Harry. I know it's New Year's Eve. I know you're feeling lonely, but you just can't show up here, tell me you love me, and expect that to make everything all right. It doesn't work this way.
Harry: Well, how does it work?
Sally: I don't know, but not this way.
Harry: How about this way? I love that you get cold when it's seventy-one degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're lookin' at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely. And it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
Sally:  You see. That is just like you, Harry. You say things like that, and you make it impossible for me to hate you, and I hate you, Harry. I really hate you. I hate you.




 SLEEPLESS IN SEATTLE (1993)


OMG Tom Hanks!  I always love his movies because he's really profound in portraying the character.  He's like Adam Sandler that I can't get enough of though they might not be that good-looking but then the way they take you as if you're part of the movie.  Anyway, I had the CD of this (we have lots esp when DVD's were not that "in" before), and it was just lying there when one day I don't have anything to do and finally decided to watch it.  I would say that I hate myself for not watching it the whole time it was there!  So far when your days are down and you feel you've lost love watch this and it will make you believe that love has its way of finding you again. ^_^


Doctor Marcia Fieldstone: People who truly loved once are far more likely to love again. Sam, do you think there's someone out there you could love as much as your wife?
Sam Baldwin: Well, Dr. Marcia Fieldstone, that's hard to imagine.

Doctor Marcia Fieldstone: What are you going to do?

Sam Baldwin: Well, I'm gonna get out of bed every morning... breath in and out all day long. Then, after a while I won't have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breath in and out... and, then after a while, I won't have to think about how I had it great and perfect for a while.

Doctor Marcia Fieldstone: Tell me what was so special about your wife? 

Sam Baldwin: Well, how long is your program? Well, it was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they meant we were suppose to be together... and I knew it. I knew it the very first time I touched her. It was like coming home... only to no home I'd ever known... I was just taking her hand to help her out of a car and I knew. It was like... magic.



ANNA AND THE KING (1999)


I really love this movie, and I can't tell how many times have I watched this one.  I even know their dialogues word per word.  I am really a fan of sad ending movies.  In this movie, it took place when people were not yet open with the reality that two people of different race, culture and perhaps religion can be together.  I should say that I could really relate to this movie. I thought that I could change something as well...but I can't even if I have already tried.  Some events are inevitable.  You just have to learn to let go and move on...If some good things never last, some doesn't even start.   ^_^


Anna Leonowens: I would like to know why... , if science can unravel something as beautiful as music... , why it cannot posit a solution for a schoolteacher and a king.
King Mongkut: The manner in which people might understand such new possibilities is also process of evolution.
Anna Leonowens: Everything in Siam has it's own time.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=biYl_-_R3tI&feature=related
 
 
 Tuptim: How did husband die?
Anna Leonowens: In my arms actually.
Tuptim: How did Mem survive?
Anna Leonowens: The same way you will. One awful day at a time.


"It is always surprising how small a part of life is taken up by meaningful moments. Most often they are over before they start although they cast a light on the future and make the person who originated them unforgettable. Anna had shined such a light on Siam. "



P.S. I LOVE YOU (2007)

I didn't know about this movie until I was surfing on the internet and was looking for a nice movie to cry for and then I stumble upon this.  First, I was unsure if I have to watch this since I cannot comprehend if Hilary Swank is fit in a love story plus with Greg Butler who I have seen and loved in the movie "300".  How I love US movies and the way they transform one actor's role to another.  But then, I was proved wrong.  I cried a bucket of tears especially on the last part when she realized that she really needs to move on....*spoiler* can't say but I'm sure you won't regret this....just don't look on her face and think of the character instead.  ^_^




CASABLANCA (1942)

Ok so this is one of the most talked about movie.  I've decided to watch it because they told me how super the acting of Humphrey Boghart was portrayed.  I hate the girl..but then she's beautiful so you won't hate her.  Unfortunately, I watched it in black and white so maybe I was not moved so much but then after watching it the second time around, I fell in love with him as well.  A movie that you need to watch otherwise you'd be left behind when people talk about movies...you'd end up like me. =)


 "Of all the gin joints in all the towns in all the world, she walks into mine."

 Ilsa: You're saying this only to make me go.
Rick: I'm saying it because it's true. Inside of us, we both know you belong with Victor. You're part of his work, the thing that keeps him going. If that plane leaves the ground and you're not with him, you'll regret it. Maybe not today. Maybe not tomorrow, but soon and for the rest of your life.
Ilsa: But what about us?
Rick: We'll always have Paris. We didn't have, we, we lost it until you came to Casablanca. We got it back last night.
Ilsa: When I said I would never leave you.
Rick: And you never will. But I've got a job to do, too. Where I'm going, you can't follow. What I've got to do, you can't be any part of. Ilsa, I'm no good at being noble, but it doesn't take much to see that the problems of three little people don't amount to a hill of beans in this crazy world. Someday you'll understand that.
[Ilsa lowers her head and begins to cry]
Rick: Now, now...
[Rick gently places his hand under her chin and raises it so their eyes meet]
Rick: Here's looking at you kid.


10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU (1999)

Just one of my teeny bopper movies.  This is the movie that I fell in love with Keath Ledger...especially the famous "Can't-take-my-eyes-off-you" song wishing that someone would do exactly the same thing at school hehehehe not a particular favorite but it's alright to watch.  

Kat Stratford: I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
                                         Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
(Keath singing Can't Take My Eyes Off You)


 WHILE YOU WERE SLEEPING(1995)

 After watching this, especially when you're alone, you would want to be part of their family, one of those movies that I love to watch again.  ^_^


 Lucy: Peter once asked me when I fell in love with Jack. And I told him, "It was while you were sleeping."

 Lucy: Do you believe in love at first sight? Nah, I betcha don't, you're probably too sensible for that. Or have you ever, like, seen somebody? And you knew that, if only that person *really* knew you, they would, well, they would of course dump the perfect model that they were with, and realize that YOU were the one that they wanted to, just, grow old with. Have you ever fallen in love with someone you haven't even talked to? Have you ever been so alone you spend the night confusing a man in a coma? 


PATCH ADAMS

 What can I say about Robin Williams, I must have adored all of his movie from Dead Poet Society, to What Dreams May Come, Mrs. Doubtfire....a true story (I wonder if the true Patch Adams is the same as what was portrayed in the film) shows how emotions are far more powerful than intellect alone.  One fo my personal favorites that you would not get tired of watching.  Hilarious with a lot of moral lesson.     ^_^


Hunter Patch Adams: I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly without complexities or pride.
I love you because I know no other way then this.
So close that your hand, on my chest, is my hand.
So close, that when you close your eyes, I fall asleep.
(excerpt from Pablo Neruda's sonnet)




Hunter Patch Adams: [Patch stands on a cliff, contemplating suicide] So what now, huh? What do you want from me? Yea, I could do it. We both know you wouldn't stop me. So answer me, please. Tell me what you're doing. Okay, let's look at the logic. You create man. Man suffers enormous amounts of pain. Man dies. Maybe you should have had just a few more brainstorming sessions prior to creation. You rested on the seventh day, maybe you should have spent that day on compassion.
[a rock tumbles down the cliff]
Hunter Patch Adams: You know what? You're not worth it.
[he walks away]


 Hunter Patch Adams: All of life is a coming home. Salesmen, secretaries, coal miners, beekeepers, sword swallowers, all of us. All the restless hearts of the world, all trying to find a way home. It's hard to describe what I felt like then. Picture yourself walking for days in the driving snow; you don't even know you're walking in circles. The heaviness of your legs in the drifts, your shouts disappearing into the wind. How small you can feel, and how far away home can be. Home. The dictionary defines it as both a place of origin and a goal or destination. And the storm? The storm was all in my mind. Or as the poet Dante put it: In the middle of the journey of my life, I found myself in a dark wood, for I had lost the right path. Eventually I would find the right path, but in the most unlikely place.


BREAKFAST AT TIFFANY'S

Aside from loving her outfit (all black), this movie would want you to visit the tiffany's as well. 
I truly adore George Peppard in this film and how he was very patient about her.  I love the last part more when it all made sense as to why she keeps on dating rich guys....you need to watch this as it a true classic - one of the best Audrey Hepburn movies. 

Paul Varjak: Holly, I'm in love with you.
Holly Golightly: So what?
Paul Varjak: So what? So plenty! I love you. You belong to me.
Holly Golightly: No. People don't belong to people.
Paul Varjak: Of course they do.
Holly Golightly: I'm not going to let anyone put me in a cage.
Paul Varjak: I don't want to put you in a cage. I want to love you.
Holly Golightly: It's the same thing.
Paul Varjak: No it's not. Holly...
Holly Golightly: I'm not Holly. I'm not Lula Mae, either. I don't know who I am! I'm like cat here, a couple of no-name slobs. We belong to nobody and nobody belongs to us. We don't even belong to each other.
Paul Varjak: You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a "wild thing," and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself.
[takes out the ring and throws it in Holly's lap]
Paul Varjak: Here. I've been carrying this thing around for months. I don't want it anymore.


Definitely, Maybe (2008)

My sister just told me that this movie is really nice.  I told her that I hate Isla Fischer, I don't like the way she acts then she said that in this movie ---"you'll love her" and I did.  A must see movie for people who are waiting for the perfect guy or girl but the question is.....is there a perfect or right person or it's just the perfect timing? This movie is quite in touch with reality because it shows that people fall in love and  get hurt.  Guys get hurt as well, and the main reality that all marriages dissolves.  Also, not all love stories are with happy ending, but in the end of all the adversity, somewhere in time you'll find your right match.  It's just we are so hasty to fall in love and to commit with someone else because we think that it is the right thing to do when in fact it's not yet the right course of time. ^_^

April: Oooh? What are you gonna say? 
Will Hayes: I'm still working on it I don't know
April: OH! You should work it on with me you should practice with me; I'm really good at that.
[Walks over to the railing]
April: I'll be Emily.
April: I'm Emily your college sweetheart is there something you wanted to ask me?
Will Hayes: Emily...
April: Wait! You gotta get down on your knee
Will Hayes: No I'm not getting down on my knee
April: [Walks towards Will] She'll like it; she'll like seeing you down on your knee...
Will Hayes: I'm not getting down on my knee
April: [Rolls her eyes and walks back to the railing and turns around] Such a mistake! Okay
Will Hayes: Emily...
April: Yes William?
Will Hayes: Don't make me laugh! Emily Will you... um... marry me?
April: No
Will Hayes: Oh my god...
April: What do you mean, 'Will you, um, marry me?' I haven't seen you in weeks! You don't look happy or excited about the prospect of our marriage! You're asking me to give up my - my freedom, my joie de vivre for an institution that fails as often as it succeeds? And why should I marry you anyway? I mean, why do you wanna marry me? Besides some bourgeois desire to fulfil an ideal that society embeds in us from an early age to promote a consumer capitalist agenda?
Will Hayes: Oh! Oh, my God.
April: You should've got on your knee.
Will Hayes: Just shut up! Here... I wanna marry you because you're the first person I wanna look at when I wake up in the morning, and the only one I wanna kiss goodnight. Because the first time that I saw these hands, I couldn't imagine not being able to hold them. But mainly, when you love someone as much as I love you, getting married is the only thing left to do. So, will you, um, marry me?
April: Definitely. Maybe. 




 WHEN A MAN LOVES A WOMAN (1994)




Last night I couldn't sleep and I was thinking to sleep late because its weekend by the way, so I've decided to look for a nice film to watch.  I have this on my computer for a long time, I've heard great reviews about this movie but I didn't have the urge to watch it since I don't really like Andy Garcia so much though I love Meg Ryan of course, no doubt about it. I played it and was looking into the movement of the story. I was a bit agitated to the flow of the story where the climax would be or what kind of conflict are they going to face. As I was looking into the characters, I saw how truly amazing husband Andy Garcia is in this movie! I wish men, with that kind of look, would be available in this era! I hate Meg here - and I think this is a movie that depicts a true life incident, what I mean is that this movie could happen in real life setting.  You would hate her here but then you would picture yourself and see for yourself how complicated women are even there's nothing complicated in the first place and you would understand how men think and why they act like that.  I love this film, I would definitely recommend it especially to couples who are in the brink of losing their marriage. I love ANDY GARCIA!!!!! 




Here's a quote from my favorite part where she tries to act like she's hurting when in fact he's trying to help her.

Alice Green: No Michael, we're supposed to try to be real. And when you feel alone, you are not together, and that is real.
Alice Green: Fuck that! Fuck making it better. It's not getting better! I don't know how to make it better and I swear to God you don't either! 
Alice Green: I think I could love you again if you could, for once, say 'I don't know.' 
Michael Green: I don't know. 
Come on, let's be real. You're clean. You stay hopeless and confused. Keep polishing those skills. And I'll take the heat. 'Cause I got some needs of my own. When I touch my wife, I like it better if her skin doesn't crawl.
[Alice tries to interrupt]
Michael Green: . My wife hurts. I need to be able to say 'What's wrong, honey? Something I can do? And I love you. So fuck me.'

Saturday, April 9, 2011

When God Made You

Its always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And Ive never been so sure of anything in my life


***I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me


I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart Ill be there too
From this moment I want you to know
Ill let nothing come between us
And I will love the ones you love
Now gone are all my question about why
And Ive never been so sure of anything in my life


(Bridge)
He made the sun He made the moon
To harmonize in perfect tune
One cant move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know its true
Youre for me and Im for you
Cause my world just cant be right
Without you in my life


He must've heard every prayer Ive been praying
Yes He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you
He mustve been thinking about me

Sana One Year Na!

" kung talagang para sa iyo ang isang tao, mawala man siya ng mahabang panahon, magkikita at magkikita pa kayo, kapag tama na ang mali at pwede na ang hindi...."-  My friend quoted. 

.... and my reply....

Kahit sa panahon na pinagtagpo kayo ulit, akala mo meron pa pero wala na pala.
Sa pagkakataon na hinantay mo yung sandali na iyon, dun mo lang pala masasabi na yung dating
kayo ay wala na.  Hindi mo na maibabalik kahit pilitin pa.
Totoo pala yung pag tapos na...tapos na. Pag tuyo na ang damdamin- tuyo na.

Sa sandaling iyon...tititigan mo na lang siya at sasabihin sa sarili mo na siya yung dati mong minahal.
Matutulala ka na lang sa kanyang mukha dahil sa kung anumang dahilan ang tanging mong maiisip ay kung bakit wala ka nang nararamdaman; Na siya yung dating mong iniiyakan..tinatanong mo ang sarili mo kung bakit ka niya iniwan....
Sa sandaling iyon maaalala mo lahat ng sakit, pero parang wala na yung sakit.

Sa mga sandaling iyon, maaalala mo na siya yung dati mong kasa-kasama, dati mong katawanan, kaiyakan, karamay...
gusto mo siyang yakapin sa sandaling iyon pero wala na...ayaw mo ng umasa muli...ayaw mo nang buksan ang nakaraan kasi hindi niya alam yung pinagdaanan mong sakit....
Sakit na dinarasal mo na sana maalis na...
Sakit na bakit sayo pa...sayo pa na nagmahal ng lubusan.
Sakit na tinatanong mo ang sarili mo bakit ka pa nagising sa bawat araw na sisikat.
Sakit na alam mo sa sarili mo na makakabangon ka ulit pero sana ngayon na....wag na bukas o sa susunod na araw.
Sakit na nakikita mo ang sarili mo na lumulubog sa kawalan at pilit mong kinukumbinsi ang sarili mo na okay ka pero hindi.
Na sana nakikita niya at nararamdaman niya ang iyong pinagdadaanan.

Sa mga panahong pinagtagpo kayo ulit. Pasasalamatan mo yung panahon na iyon dahil dun mo lang malalaman na wala na talaga.  Na yun lang pala yung pakiramdam...wala na.

Nasabi ko na sa sarili ko na sana one year na. Ano kaya ang mararamdaman ko after 1 year nang paghihiwalay namin?  Darating rin pala yung ika 1 year na hinihintay ko at....sa pagkakataon na iyon madami na palang nag-iba.  Pati ako nagiba na. Wala na talaga.