ART OF LETTING GO THREAD....

Art of Letting Go...

is a collection of stories with sad and bitter endings

because that's life

not everything ends like a fairy tale

sometimes even we don't want to let go

we still want to fight for it

but then fate is not on your side

you just have to let it slip

and prepare to say the word "goodbye"

i hope you like this collection and feel free to add your own thoughts and stories; some stories are from actual facts and stories of my friends or friend of friends; some are mine and some are just made up...>_<

#1   empty road

The whole night I wasn't able to sleep. We didn't say I love you anymore; facing opposite sides of the bed.   No more hugs and no good nights.
As I keep on repeating in my head; I keep on convincing myself,

"tomorrow I'll leave this place...I'll leave him..."

The air seemed dry but it was cold inside the room.
The room seemed empty though we're lying there.
How could he sleep so soundly while I feel so heavy?

The next day, we were going to the office at the same time

...no hi's...no hello's...no goodmorning's...

everything was still cold between us. He asked me to have some tea with him but I refused. 

With all the force in my throat, with hands were shaking, with my mind begging me to tell him that I'm going to leave him... but then my heart says stay...I said...

"I want to say something...I have to leave you, because I cannot take this anymore...we are not like before..." 

and before I could explain more he just said,

"Just go...." 

as hard as a brick wall. cold. still. Just like that----he let me go.

I wanted to explain why I'm leaving so he would stop and beg in front of me...
I wanted him to hear my explanation why I was feeling blue....
that I don't see myself with him anymore....its like we're together but we are not.

A room with two people but empty... it's like I have to choose between being alone because I'm alone or with someone but I still feel alone.

I couldn't say anything. I wanted to say more but I controlled myself not to say anything and not to beg for him.
I took my things without him knowing that I packed everything. He went to the common area...he didn't see me pass by as I looked back.
I want to hug him, but I know I wouldn't be able to let go.
I want to kiss him goodbye but it would hurt me more.
I know how much I will miss him but I have to do this for us; for us to understand the feeling how to need someone and how to value someone.
And so I left..with a heavy heart, convincing myself that I did the right thing though I knew that I didn't do the right thing...
but I left....I already stepped out from his apartment and I couldn't take it back....
I told myself don't look back, don't cry...I was counting...I was hoping he'd open the door and run after me and embrace me just like in the movies.
But all I've had were just air of emptiness and the distance of the road and his door telling me

"go on...walk away....."

KOREAN CRAZE

I'm here once more to give insight about my new syndrome....Korean Craze!  It took me to leave my school and finally get hooked on Korean movies and dramas.  It all started when I was surfing the TV and  stumbled upon this beautiful being, creation of God whom I thought was only in my imagination - Jang Geun Suk (Sukkie oppa ^_^ ) a.k.a. Tae Kyung in You're Beautiful. The moment I saw his face on TV, I said thank you God for letting my instinct work and told me to turn the TV on this channel.  After that, I started surfing the internet about him, his movies, his life and I started watching Korean dramas and movies.

To start with ----

YOU'RE MY PET

Stars:

Jang Geun Suk

Kim Han Neul

While watching this movie, you'll feel light and happy wishing you have a pet like "momo".  I love Jang Geun Suk no question about that and I'm actually not biased =) but then this movie is just the right amount of energy particularly not much drama but rather perfect when you're just relaxing.  Love this last part and the OST is very vibrant and nice to listen to. 

scenes in YOU'RE MY PET

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A MOMENT TO REMEMBER

Stars:

Jung Woo-sung
Son Ye-jin

                A story about a husband trying everything to let his wife with Alzheimer's remember everything and how they started their love. 
                If you're feeling low and sad and you want to dwell in that melancholic aura then prepare a tissue roll and oxygen tank and watch this.  I fell in love with Jung Woo Sung in this movie and who wouldn't if he'd do anything to let you remember your vows of love.  I like So Ye Jin a lot (she plays roles so well even in "the classic") especially the way she cries.

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BABO
(Miracle of a Giving Fool)

Stars:

Cha Tae Yun
Ha Ji Won

Warning: I need two oxygen tanks for this.

Maybe I just have a weak heart when it comes to people with special needs.  I cried the whole time and after watching this, I watched again (you're my pet) just to calm me down, otherwise I would end up thinking why? why? why? =)

Jang Geun Suk

 

The man who saved me from a great deal of despair...

Pit Stops Travel Guide 2012 (Calamba)

                  I've decided to start the year right by traveling to the place closest to my heart - LAGUNA.  Well, I'm not a native of Laguna but then my family have moved here since high school in Sta. Rosa.  Then, we moved to another location in Alaminos.  The first time we moved here men I'm going  crazy! From the accustomed traffic and busy streets of Manila and Parañaque (where we used to live before) then off to a jungle man! I can say that its a total shock.  After awhile I was able to get used to the atmosphere and then now I can finally say that I love this place.  At 8pm you wouldn't see people on the streets anymore, everyone is inside their houses and at 9pm everyone's asleep.  Then in the morning at 4am you'd here people selling "pandesal" and sometimes the loud buzz of motorcycle selling vegetables and fish.  Other than that you'd hear people already sweeping the streets, roaming around, clanging of plates as they prepare.

                  So much for the introduction, let's get into the travel part.  I've search on the internet some places to visit in Laguna because I was curious which places can people go and visit here.  Some of friends were asking me to tour them but then I don't know anything about my own place.  So I've decided to start my travel here in my hometown.  I told my college friends (tin, nina, espie) to help me explore Calamba) we went to check Los Baños and Pansol (famous for hot springs) and check out the pools and room rates there.  Room ranges from 200-500/head aside from the pool entrance of 80-100 you can haggle with them especially when its not peak season, by the way we went last month, so we were able to get a room of 1700 king size bed, aircon, bathroom, plus swimming - not bad but then I think I could get it more cheaper if I tried to haggle more but then at that time we were tired and it was already 9 in the evening so we just took the best available pool villa.


                  In the morning, we decided to go to the house of our national hero - Dr. Jose P. Rizal in Calamba.

It's already renovated and it looks bigger outside but then when you go in it on has 2 bedrooms, 1 big dining area, a lounge, a small kitchen and a balcony.  The typical house during the Spanish time.  It was stated that Rizal's house was considered to be the largest in Calamba before so you'd see that Rizal's family was well-off that time.  It was the dream of his father to build this type of house.

 

1st floor- more of history and pictures of Rizal when he was young. 

Bed of Rizal??

Cooking time! Rizal's actual kitchen

There was an addition part to their house, which is then turned as a small museum.  Here you can see Rizal's pictures and memorabilia's. 

There was no one around that time, so we have asked Rizal to join us in our group picture and he was very cooperative.  =) If this is a replica of him, then we have concluded that this is the original height of Rizal hmmmmm....as I recall in our Rizal subject in college, it was believed that Rizal was not really as tall as he sounds to be.  That's why they have given him the term "small but terrible". 

to be continued....

to be posted excarsion in Laguna-Quezon....